Crazy or Not....

Well, it is official we were both given releases and told that neither of us were crazy! But, I have to say it has been the hardest part of the process, at least in most recent days. Justin, had his appointment first thing this morning, and afterwards he called me to share his experience. Let me say that I already had concerns about the upcoming appointment, and it did not help that Justin told me several times " less is more". Justin told me I would go into the Doctors office sit down, and that the Doctor would not talk for 10 minutes, but that he would look up occasionally and take notes of nothing specific, I guess. That is exactly how it happened, but during the silence all I keep hearing was tick,tick,tick. There was a clock in front of me, a grandfather clock to the side of me, and a clock behind my head. Tick, Tick, Tick.... The doctor asked me a series of questions like have I ever had a depressive state ( No, I said) have I ever had a manic state, according to him where I was hyper, very active, lots of projects going, and not much sleep ( No, I said) Did I hear voices in my head (No, I said) tried any drugs, ever ( No, I said) had any violations with the law ( No, I said) even a citation, well Okay yes to that question. He asked about my earliest childhood memory, good, bad, or otherwise. I told him about the time my mom left me ( I was two) and my oldest brother at the gas station in Seymour, Texas. He asked if I had abandonment issues, I said No. I told him I had my hands on my hips when she came back for us and said, Why did you leave us? He asked if I had anger issues. I keep reminding myself less is more, and I keep thinking to myself treat this like a job interview, and choose your words wisely! I will say based on a comment I made about Justin during my session, he suggested that Justin might benefit from a follow up visit!!!! Justin and I laughed a lot today about this entire, crazy experience. Justin said the Doctor could not even help me because I was not honest with 50% of my answers. I said just for that I will call and make you that appointment that the Doctor suggested.

All of our requirements are completed, and as soon as I get the letter in the mail from the Oncologist, I will bundle everything together and mail it to European Adoption, which should be early next week.